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Plan of Attack: Against the whole bloody lip...

The alarm goes off. *hit snooze button* It will go off in five minutes, But five minutes is all it takes to have a bloody lip. Blood from a fearful girl who is so frozen that she can only seem to bite down on her lip and pray she can function today. Function despite the nightmare she just had. Function despite the memories and hurts and questions now driving her mad less than .002 seconds after she wakes up.
Welcome to my morning.
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I wish I could tell you this specific scenario only happens once a month or so. But here lately it has been happening more so than it has not. The sad condition of my bottom lip is most definitely the clearest proof of that (Praise the Lord for some good lipstick to cover it!).
But I don't want to cover it. I want the problem to go away. But I have no control over what scenes flood me as I sleep. And I'm so out of it when I first wake up that putting up a fight so suddenly and intentionally feels impossible. And there is nothing more defeat…

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